Welll no picture today. I'm just so busy that I dont have an extra 15 minutes to take a good, creative picture, edit it, upload, and write a blog with it. SOOO I'm just blogging with pictures as often as I can.

Well I got reconnected to my best friend from ODT, Barbara, and it's awesome! First my teacher, Miss Sarah, now my friend, Barbara! =] It's really cool to get in touch with old memories =] ODT was a horrible experience, with horrible people, yet some good still came out of it =]

I'm being hailed as the "Star of the show" for the recital, and my teacher was told by professionals that I have a LOT of potential! I feel so special after everything people have said =] Also, I'm organizing and choreographing a flash-mob to advertise ADMA and the Elite group. I'm SO excited to do ADMA Elite! Starting pointe in less than 2 weeks =] Lets do a list of things I"m excited for;

1. ADMA elite
2. Pointe, jazz, and tap
3. moving! 
4. family reunion
5. working at Camp Ideas
6. flash mob
7. SUMMER! 
8. 4th of July (Chandler's coming home again!) 
9. Chandler to come home for good
10. a haircut
11. to start playing frisbee again!

 Yup, lots to look forward to! As for now I'm going to look forward to sleeping for the next 8 hours. goodnight.
~Rocky

 

Happy memorial day! Started out with a nice family breakfast, a long bike ride including possums in the garbage, muddy rivers, creepy Puerto Ricans, and naps under trees. Went home and called up Jon (pictured) to come hang out, and that was fun =] we chilled in the sun for a while with my family, then went inside and watched "monty python; the quest for the holy grail". I love that movie! All in all it's been a pretty relaxing enjoyable day =] However my computer charger has suddenly decided to not work, so that's annoying me. it's rigged with tape to get it to charge at all. w00h00. 

I'm really looking forward to dance tomorrow, now that we dont have to practice for the recital anymore. At the same time it's going to be so weird not to hear "go to where you start your dance" and to be doing barre, body alignment, développes, tendus, plies, battements, and other typical class room stuff. And cardio is going to be a killer, considering I didn't stick to my diet at all this week, and didn't do cardio because I didn't want to end up sore before I had to perform in 5 numbers. I've got a LOT of work ahead of me. Bring it on! =D 

As for now I'm going to sleep. I'm SOOO tired that I fell asleep watching said movie, and Jon was teasing me...

~Rocky

I love Gracie <3

My splits are so much better! 

This girl here is a future me. I adore her, and she's going to be a star! watch out dancers! Tessa is coming!

Grandmum <3 

Kate <3

Well, I think I haven't had a *real* post in what, 2, 3 days? Sorry about that! Been very busy. Here's a rundown of my weekend;

Me and mis padres <3

   Friday;  Got up, did school did my makeup, did my hair (3ish hours to curl. woohoo), got in the car and went to ALHS for dress rehearsal around 3ish and didn't get out until 10 or 11, and then went out with the Savelli's, Molly, Mrs. King, Liz, and the tech guys. Then I went home and slept. (Great, busy, productive, dramatic, long day)
   Saturday; Got up around 730, tried to get the hot tub working (failed), showered, did my makeup, did my hair, went shopping, then was at ALHS by 12. Had the recital (which was WONDERFUL), went shopping again, hung out with friends at home, then went out to Crocker park and had Kate spend the night. All the same adjectives used to describe Friday apply.
   Today (sunday); got up, went to church, did chairs, came home to change, went to chandlers, came home, and here I am. wooohooo!

Basically it's been a GREAT weekend, although I haven't been online for days. I think you understand my inability to blog ahha.
Anyways, the recital is finally done. I dont think I fully comprehend this yet, or how strange it will be to have an actual dance class again. I love performing! if I could be on stage every day, I absolutely would <3 Didn't get alot of pictures, but the ones I got are really great =] It went smoothly, everyone did a great job, and it was so much fun! I cannot wait to do it next year, and for the performance group that we're starting =] Also, on a dance related note, I've decided to organize a flash-mob to do some stuff in the area in July, if I can. =]

Grandmum is in town, and I'm really enjoying having her here =] I am so sleep deprived I can't even think right now ahha! It's almost dinner time I think, but all I want is a nap. I think I'll do that until dinner. Peace out world! <3
~Rocky

Ok, so again, no picture because I've just been way too busy to take one, but I swear there'll be one tomorrow! Dress rehearsals are going to KILL since I'll be there from 3-10 and them I'm going out with the Savelli's till God knows when. Then I get to get up in the morning and do it all over again from 12:30-4:00 on Satuday. woohoo! I know I sound sarcastic, but I'm sincerely excited and enthusiastic =]

Tomorrow Grandmom is coming into town, and I'm so happy! I adore her above everyone else on the face of the earth. If I could choose only one person to survive and everyone else die, I would def. pick her. Ok, actually, idk who I'd pick, but she's DEFINITELY in the running ;P But that's beside the point! The point is I'm glad she's coming to visit and can be at my recital cause it is a huge deal to me =]

We got the house! I'm so happy! We'll be moving in July sometime, and I just can't wait! =D I started screaming like a maniac I was so excited haha! It's gonna be fantastic! =]

Ok, that's really about it. I guess I got in a mini-fight with a friend tonight, but it should be ok. It's more like little things irritated me and I just decided to like take some space until i calm down. It's really my fault I suppose for not speaking my mind and opinion more... oh well... I just kinda get like that. I dont say anything when little things bug me (I dont wanna be petty!) and then it just builds up until I ust have to ignore/avoid someone for like a week or something and then I'm over it all... it's a character flaw I'm trying to work on, but it's not going so well it seems =/

Guess that's it for tonight. Sorry I"m neglecting pictures! I'll get back to that gig starting tomorrow =]
~Rocky

Uhm, yeah, so today has been a bad day I guess. Dont really feel like getting into details, but I'm exhausted and just void of sanity at the moment. But hey, soon as I got to the studio things started looking up. I'm gonna own at that darn recital on Saturday, and I'm SO ready to be done with it! My knee is feeling a bit better, but not perfect yet. I got my right split, which has NEVER happened before, so yay! I dont think Miss Liz hates me like she used to, so that's really good. we get along well now and have a better understanding I think. Got all my shopping done for the recital so I think i'm pretty much set for it. I'm really tired and dont really feel like writing this blog right now, so this is the best you're getting outta me tonight. anddddd I didn't get to take a picture so you just gonna have to deal with a picture that showcases my mandatory, uniform lipstick, and how I feel about it.

Today has been... a day... not altogether good, not altogether bad, so it kinda just evens out to being a day. It started out great cause I woke up energetic for the first time in a long time, my sister gave me a frappuccino from Starbucks, it was bright and sunny, got to talk to the ever-lovely Lizzie (<3), and that was that.

It started going down-hill in cardio class. My knee has started acting up again, and I can't even move it right now it hurts so bad. I was doing one-footed jumps on the trampoline which proceeded to fold in on me and break, and I fell flat on the ground. I asked my instructor, Brad, if I could possibly get out of teaching on thursday to see the friend who I mentioned is only home for the week, and he said it would be stupid of me to ask Jo, even though I explained the situation.

After that minor-rejection of my request, I signed up for my summer classes, and fought tears as I got back to work cleaning. I was not successful for very long before I found myself locked in the bathroom crying for at least 10 minutes. For those of you who know me, it takes a *LOT* to make me cry, and something has to matter more than you could imagine. Well there I was. I finally stopped, went back to vacuum the office, and burst out crying again in front of Brad when he asked what was wrong.

I then went home and got online. So you're now caught up on my day. It's had it's bads and goods but not enough of either to classify "how my day was". The picture I took for today is an awful picture, considering my knee and hand are cut out, but in all fairness I had my crappy camera on "timer" setting, and was using boxes and books and a cell-phone chair as a tripod in my crowded messy attic. I think it turned out not bad considering the circumstances. This is my outfit for breakdancing on saturday. woohoo. I guess that's it for today.
~Rocky

Yeah, I'm posting twice in one day, but I felt it needed to be done. I'm gonna be daring today. Tonight I was talking with a friend who is VERY important to me, and he was saying how he didn't feel good enough, and insecure. I started naming some of my insecurities and things I'm self-conscious about in an attempt to show him he's not the only one, and in under 2 minutes I'd listed over 20 things. So now I'm going to be bold, and I'm going to trust you (whoever you are) with my top 6 insecurities. I'm just like everyone else, I'm flawed, I'm imperfect, I'm insecure, I'm self-conscious, I'm a normal teenage girl. So here we go;

  1) I hate my legs. I think they're awful. This never bugged me until I started dancing again and my teacher always says how bent and deformed they are, and now I feel like everyone's going to look at my legs and think "what a freak".
  2) I am very embarrassed by how long my toes are and wide my feet are, mostly cause my mom exclaims at least three times a year "Oh my gosh, Rocky! Your toes are so long! look at those nasty things! hahahaha!"
   3) I think I annoy everyone. I think i'm too loud and like everyone thinks i'm fake because of my enthusiasm and level of energy and hyperness.
  4) I hate my fingernails because I can't keep them long, especially my left middle finger because the nail doesn't grow right cause i slammed it in a door when I was little.
  5)  I think my ears are too big because my dad always teased me that they are when I was little, so now I feel like they are even though I know they're really fine... I think?
  6) I have HORRIBLE handwriting which I find myself always apologizing to people for when I write anything and they see

Have at it, world! I'm not brave all the time, I dont think I'm perfect, and I see my flaws at least as much as everyone else does, probably more. But I'm telling you now, I'm not afraid of them. Those imperfections are part of what give me the drive and determination I have in life. I'm not controlled by my natural instincts; to hide in a shell until that one day when I magically pop out and am suddenly confident. No, that time will never come. There will always be something you wish you could change, or that you wish were different, and I'm not going to let that have any effect on my life. I'm letting you know I'm not scared of what the world thinks of me, and when I need that extra boost I just remember that everyone else is also feeling similarly about some characteristic of theirs.

This is why I'm not shy. I have no fear. My value is not in how I'm viewed or 'how I feel'. My value is in God, my 'flaws' make me who I am, and from here on out I'm not only going to live with them, I'm going to embrace them.

Quotes related to this topic;

How much will you indulge in your flaws? What are your flaws? Are they flaws?
    ~ "Girl, interrupted" 
Take my darkest fears and play them Like a lullaby
    ~ Evanescence, "All that I'm living for"
'Cause there's a stronger woman in me
    ~Jewel, "Stronger Woman" (didn't see that title coming, did you? =P )
Trying to be everything can make you lose your mind
    ~ Lady Antebellum "American Honey"
taking no chances means wasting your dreams.
    ~Ellen Hopkins, "Crank"
Am I really the way I percieve myself, or is the person others see the truth of me?
    ~Ellen Hopkins, "Tricks"
Have you ever seen me defeated? Don't you forget what I've been through and yet I'm still standing
    ~"Evita" 


~Rocky

P.S.
Even as I'm writing this, I bit my nails. Yeah, another insecurity that feeds into #4. Also, I highly recommend the song "Mirror" by Barlow Girl.

Today has been amazing! I could not have hoped for a better surprise than the one that awaited me at church; one of my best friends, Chandler, was finally home! I've known this kid for a long time now, and I absolutely love him, but he's been in Georgia for about a year now I think and I couldn't talk to him. We've had highs and lows in our friendship, but always been sincere through it all. He's only home for a week, but I'm glad to have him back in my life even for such a short amount of time. He comes home for good in August, and I'm SOOO excited! I think I literally started screaming when I saw him.

More than being reunited with a best friend (a term which I dont take lightly or give freely), I learned something about myself; My overly-forgiving attitude is not necessarily a bad thing. I always hated that about myself, how I let people screw me over time and again and just forgave and let them back into my life. For once, it's paid off, and so I think it's all worth it. If I hadn't forgiven Chandler for some of the things in the past (which I will NOT get into), then I wouldn't be able to call him my friend today. I wouldn't be able to celebrate with him, and talk, and cheer him on, and be proud of him as I am now. Maybe being forgiving has caused me a lot of pain in the past, but I see even just this one friendship was salvaged because of that, and it makes all the other times of risking and losing worth it.

I'm so happy to have him home, and so proud of all he's accomplished and how far he's come! We've been through (and put each other through) alot together, and it just goes to prove that forgiveness in friendship is  worth the risk of being hurt again =]
~Rocky

I could not take a picture today because I forgot my memory card in my computer, however here is a candid at a party, until the other pictures get uploaded by people. My day can be summarized in three letters and two words; wth just happened??? It's been very confusing, surprising, happy, fun, weird, unexpected, painful, entertaining, tiring, hyper, and many more adjectives that I'll spare you. Let's explain with a brief timeline of my day, shall we?
1) Gardened and mulched in flip flops at my church. didn't know I would be doing that
2) dropped a chair on my foot, then had a stack of chairs fall on me, and didn't know what i was doing.
3) dropped myself in tumbling today and knocked the wind outta me.
4) didn't have the address to the party i was going
5) saw, like, 10 kids burst out breakdancing in the middle of Crocker Park (some of them were great!)
6) saw a 'friend' who pretended they didn't even know me. I in turn did the same so I wouldn't feel/look like a pathetic loser.
7) got hit on by some really hot Australian dude... seriously, what guy really has the guts to walk up to a girl they catch a glimpse of and actually introduce themselves these days? typically it's a lot of eye-flirting with no outcome. nope. this guy walks into the area, sees me, waits a minute than walks right over and is like "Hey, how are you? I'm ____, what's your name?". Talk about being manly!

All in all it was a really good day, but very unexpected. Also, i've decided I'm far to talkative to stick with just a simple sentence or 3 with a picture for a post, so this shall remain a photo blog, but it will also have regular, fully written posts. It's been vary difficult for me to just post vague things, as I'm the kind of person who talks and talks and talks. So I wont try anymore =]
~Rocky 

One last thing; 

Mis padres put in an offer today on a house in Sheffield we're trying to buy! Wish us luck! I'm REALLY hoping we get it! =D

Yup. I'm tired. Dance went well today, my knee's feeling better, and I'm busy all day tomorrow. Didn't get in a post earlier cause I was occupied until about 11ish, so now it's post time, then bed time. Ready for this darn recital to be done and over with so I can get back to a real life!
-Rocky

Getting ready to head out to the studio and really hoping to master my solo since the recital is in 9 days. Looking at this picture does little more than remind me I have to get new ballet shoes, since I can barely dance in these I've worn them out so much. Photo not exactly what I wanted, but my camera died, so oh well! Really ready for a break, and hoping one comes soon...
~Rocky

Hello there! Tonight is my first time posting in this blog. I was recently inspired by a flicker member called Wisely-chosen, who takes a picture daily and adds a small blurb about what's going on in her life. So I've decided to start a photo blog! From here on out, only a photograph either of myself or something that sums up my life, accompanied by a short post about my day (hence the title "words get in the way") =] Also, I highly suggest checking out wisely-chosen's flicker; she is amazing, beautiful, and inspirational! Here we go;

Bleaching parts of my hair tonight with my sister while listening to the original Paramore, before they got so generic and dumbed down. Liked them much better back in the "Decoy" and "Misery Business" days.
~Rocky